I’m sitting at Midway Airport with some lures from the past pulling at me. This laptop from which I”m writing you is one such. The delicious smell of muffins (yum) is another. And the new moon in Libra has me thinking – should I try ‘one more time’ to contact a past love.
As you can see, three very different lures, of varying degrees of import. And I’m seeing how sometimes the lure of the past calls to us because it makes sense (in some way), some out of habit – reflexively, and some because the work isn’t done.
The laptop. When I went to my cousin’s recently I took what, for me, was a huge leap of faith – bringing only my iPhone, not my laptop. I felt a bit naked traveling without the laptop but since I reasoned I’d likely only be checking email, Facebook and my usual rounds of web sites, i didn’t really NEED the laptop. It went very well indeed.
So I debated on this trip – leave the laptop at home, use the iPhone and if I wanted to write more than a “way to go!” type of comment on FB, well, I’d use my Dad’s computer. For as much as I love my iPhone as a tiny computer (as a cellphone? not so much) I HATE typing on it. Perhaps my techie readers know of a USB-enabled foldable, portable, full-size keyboard I could plug in so it was actually USABLE as a full-tilt mini-computer. So on this ‘lure of the past’ I decided that since I wanted to write and sitting around in airports or on airplanes is a good opportunity to do just that, I’d lug the laptop.
The muffins. I haven’t been eating wheat or sugar (or hardly any dairy) since early July. I had already decided on this trip to see my Dad and his wife that I’d rather be a an easy guest than a “virtuous” eater, so I’ll eat what’s served with a smile on my face. It’s an easy slide down a slippery slope to then say “all bets are off” and getting one of those delicious smelling muffins. Which, of course, contain two things I’m avoiding – wheat and sugar. So I remind myself WHY I’m doing this (better health, and while, not the primary reason, the 12 lbs I’ve lost are a good side effect as well). Yum, yum, yum – but, NO. The apple & nuts in my backpack seem paltry substitutes right now but I know I’ll soon be on a plane, and eating peanuts (I’m flying Southwest) and just fine. In this case the lure of the past is the pull of old habits that I do not believe currently serve me.
So that’s the two clear as a bell choices – yes, the past calls, but it’s clear whether or not I should answer door (hello, laptop; goodbye, muffin).
As you may know from reading this blog, my hobby for decades has been astrology. I see it more as a way of understanding myself and others, and not really as a predictive device. To me, it’s like a clock – telling the time, not causing the time. Thus it describes the current zeitgeist, does not cause it. That said, sometimes the energy that is afoot is more felicitous for some pursuits, less for others.
Yesterday’s new moon in Libra means it’s our yearly “reset” point for relationships. We ALL get to do a ‘do-over’ in our relational lives. This is particularly amplified for me for reasons that most of you will find too technical (but for my astrologically inclined readers, it occurs in my 5th house, conjunt natal Neptune). The lure here is “should I call a former sweetheart?” I think most logic would say “hell, no” and yet…..
This seems both a slippier lure than the muffins and at the same time, like it COULD be one of those “if onlys….”
So I’ll pray, meditate, ask my trusted advisor (besides God and my inner Self) and err on the side of caution.
I like the laptop, muffin types of lures better – it’s SO much easier to ‘know the next right thing’ and then just do it.
What calls to you from the past? Anything? What do you do when you hear that Siren song?