This past Wednesday was Autumn Equinox – the moment when the Sun enters the sign of Libra ushers in the autumn as we stop for a moment with equal day/equal night (thus ‘equi’ ‘nox’). The days, getting shorter since Summer Solstice, are now getting WAY shorter – each day a bit darker than the one before.
But on that day (and its counterpart in the spring) the days and nights are of equal length.
Perhaps that’s why the ancient astrologers assigned to Libra the scales, and the quality of balance.
It’s been such a subterranean theme for me just lately as I stand poised between my old job and my new one, between one daily routine and a new one that seems like it will be quite different.
I’ve noted that my normally very extroverted self seems to be requiring more solitude, more meditation, more just BE-ing, and less DO-ing than I am normally about (my brother has referred to me, aptly, as “the doer of all things”).
In the past I would have had some judgements about my seeming indolence. Chided myself to “get off yer ass and get to work!” or other non-helpful ‘motivations’. Now I observe. Ah, I say, Self seems to want to just sit and play computer games and zone out – hmmm. Ah, now it seems to be time for a flurry of chores. Oh, I see, it’s time to connect with a friend.
I think we all have rhythms and more of them than we purportedly rational beings would like to acknowledge, are driven by our animal-selves. The changing of the light, the strong signalling the Earth gives us in the transitional seasons, alerts our Inner Animal that change is required. While I’m far from a hibernating bear I have long observed that I sleep a bit more in the winter than in summer. I noticed I wanted soup, not salad, for lunch yesterday.
So I look to honor this balancing time by listening to my body/soul and also attending to my commitments – to myself and to others.
I wrote a book called Be Your Own Life Coach : Dream it! Plan it! Do it! (now out of print) – a personal growth book focused on helping people clarify and achieve their goals. My favorite part of the book though is a few pages on which I acknowledge the dance between DO-ing and BE-ing and how important it is to honor what IS, not just plow ahead mindlessly.
There’s as much danger in the plowing ahead mindlessly, I believe as in the equally dangerous habit of indolence and just “letting it all hang out.”
I think it’s all about consciousness.
Quick tip of the hat to my new friend Sara McIntosh and her fabulous blog My Dispenza Days (noted here before) which focuses on consciousness and has me thinking lots on that topic.